Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Torture

Nope, not a post about physio today. It's going well, though. The new focus on flexibility, involving ART, back manipulations, and tractioning of my hips and back, seems to be working. We're seeing drastic improvements in my flexibility during sessions... now we just need to get it to stick from session to session.

The torture I speak of is the torture of walking home from work on a 20C degree day. On those days, I'm passed by runner after runner. I start to feel a mix of emotions:
- Self-pity: "Wah, why can't I run???? It's a perfect day for a run. I want a back transplant!"
- Jealousy: "Not fair. I want to run. I'm in better shape than her!"
- Anger: "Stupid *^%$%* back"
- Envy: "Oh, she's obviously prepping for the marathon."
- Upbeat: "She's struggling, maybe I should say something to encourage her! Wait, she won't know I'm a runner."

I know this is a bump in the road, but going through the gamut of emotions like that really doesn't motivate me to walk home from work. If only I could just close my eyes and walk that way...

5 comments:

Erica said...

*hugs*

I'm in the exact same boat at the moment, with a hip injury that's keeping me benched indefinitely. I'm working on crosstraining to keep me positive - swimming, cycling, anything I CAN do instead of sniffling my way through the one (big, sad, important) thing I can't.

Sadie said...

Clearly you need a night out with yours truly ;)

I'm sorry you're struggling, hon. I honestly think you just need to find something to be passionate about until you can run again (and I really believe you WILL run again).

Sadie said...

I just tried to post this, but it's not showing up. So here goes again. If you get two messages from me, it's not because I'm going crazy. I promise.

The message said:

Clearly you need a night out with yours truly ;)

I'm sorry you're struggling, hon. I really think you need to find something to be passionate about until you can run again (and I truly believe you WILL run again).

I'm not sure what that something is, but if I can help in any way, let me know.

Nanookie said...

@ Erica: Oh no! How are you doing? How long has it been? I can't bring myself to swim. But I think yoga would be a good fit with my treatment plan.

@ Sadie: I'm actually not too mopey right now. I've come to accept it. I just wanted to describe the range of emotions that goes through my head when I see so many runners. I do believe I'll run again... it's just not anytime in the immediate future. lol.

Erica said...

It's been 3 weeks so far. I'd just chosen my race schedule for the season when my doctor called with the MRI results (a torn labrum). I'm not really in much pain, which makes it even harder to stay on the sidelines.

This helps, a little: http://www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,s6-241-286--11956-0,00.htm

So did seeing the average age of the Boston Marathon entrants (41.5, I think?). PLENTY of time to recover.